hey chubbs! i fall asleep thinking about you every night and i always remember how you could find a way to make me laugh. even when i was having a crappy day. remember how we could act stupid around each other and not feel embarrassed at all? i remember how i kept trying to pants you and you kept holding your pants up so i couldnt. then when you thought i gave up you went to go pick up the dog and i snuck up behind you and completely pulled your pants down to your ankles! haha it was funny except that i did it right in front of your mom. i think that made it funnier though cuz she laughed too! then i also remember how you took me to work (you always did) and i was putting my shoes on in the car in the parking lot. we dared each other to smell the other's shoes. first you smelled mine and said they smelled like feet and shoes. then i had to smell your shoes and i almost threw up. that made us both laugh so hard i almost cried! i dont think i ever laughed so much in all my life as i did when you were here. when you left a part of me did too. i miss you every moment of everyday. i cant wait until you and i are together again.
Hi big guy i was thinking about the times we would all go for walks remember eating icecream in the cold just so we could say we we ate icecream in the cold at the dairy queen I miss the days going to the field and catching you balls you hit alright chasing them I miss my baby I love you so much I just want to change that day and bring you back you are my best friend no one knew me like you you were so much like me in someways and so much like your father in others you took the best of both of us you are an angel from the lord above I really believe he snet you here to touch the lives you did but it doesn't make it any eaiser I hurt everyday and try to act like it doesn't I hate being here without you . I wish I could be with you right now I'm not afraid to die because I'll see you I love you.
remember how you came to pick me up from my house one day and there was smoke coming out of the hood? i asked, "is smoke suppossed to be coming out of there?" (the hot rod rig was really ghetto lol) and you said, "NO". so we pulled over and popped the hood. sure enough the thing bursts into flames and we call the fire department. we can see the fire station down the street and yet it took them 15 minutes to drive over to us. by then people had pulled over with fire extinguishers and put the fire out. you laughed at me because i asked if smoke is suppossed to come out of the hood haha. i remember how i would act stupid with a straight face and it would make you laugh. like the time i asked you if pennsylvania was in the south. you said, "baby, please tell me you're just kidding." haha i miss you hunziz.
hey chubby manziz! remember how silly we could act around each other? life was fun when you were around. i remember thinking life really sucked, at least until i met you. i realized that life could actually be good since i had you with me. all that came crashing down when you left. now i'm back to square one, and i only stick around because it's what you would want. i know you're there, but i just can't hear or see you. please be patient with me and if you're trying to get through to me keep trying! one day i wont be so deaf and blind! i'm trying to understand why God let this happen. he loved you most because he took you quick and now you'll never have to lose the child we never had or lose your parents. life is good where you are. please ask God to show those of us left behind mercy and to reveal to us why. i pray that justice is served. please be the one waiting at my side when i make the journey to heaven someday. i love you forever and ever!
Remember when we used to take hikes through the woods? I always had to carry you when you were too small. Do you remember the time we found a credit card near that creek in Greentree. All the times we went to baseball card shows. I would carry you around to each table to check out the cards. Those times were fun, huh? How about when we would go over to see that big dump truck, you would climb all over it, the owner was nice to let you do that. How about when you first got your learners permit to drive at the age of 17, man all you wanted to do is go fast. Remember i told you to pull over, you won't driving till you slow down. I think of these things sometimes. Then you went to Texas to be with your Mom, that was really tough for me. I remember crying that day. I guess it was Faith, you got to spend 3 years with her before you left us. I miss you terribly Son. I still see you lying down in your final resting place. What a life this is here, it's not right that you had to go so early. I Love you so much Mike. I can't wait till the day I ee you again.
